Kailene. 20. I'm a baddass in my own mind, but on the outside, I stutter.

some-witchy-bits:

internal-exploration:

Hey everyone, I need a huge favor from ya’ll! I’m helping a friend with her small business sell handmade and custom jewelry. She only recently decided to start shipping so I’m helping with the social media aspect of it all :) if you could follow both our Instagram and Etsy that would be a huge help! ❤️

Ps. All wire-wrapped pieces are mine :)

Hey followers. You should all signal boost this because these are awesome people and deserve lots of support!

After learning my flight was detained 4 hours,
I heard the announcement:
If anyone in the vicinity of gate 4-A understands any Arabic,
Please come to the gate immediately.

Well—one pauses these days. Gate 4-A was my own gate. I went there.
An older woman in full traditional Palestinian dress,
Just like my grandma wore, was crumpled to the floor, wailing loudly.
Help, said the flight service person. Talk to her. What is her
Problem? we told her the flight was going to be four hours late and she
Did this.

I put my arm around her and spoke to her haltingly.
Shu dow-a, shu- biduck habibti, stani stani schway, min fadlick,
Sho bit se-wee?

The minute she heard any words she knew—however poorly used—
She stopped crying.

She thought our flight had been canceled entirely.
She needed to be in El Paso for some major medical treatment the
Following day. I said no, no, we’re fine, you’ll get there, just late,

Who is picking you up? Let’s call him and tell him.
We called her son and I spoke with him in English.
I told him I would stay with his mother till we got on the plane and
Would ride next to her—Southwest.

She talked to him. Then we called her other sons just for the fun of it.

Then we called my dad and he and she spoke for a while in Arabic and
Found out of course they had ten shared friends.

Then I thought just for the heck of it why not call some Palestinian
Poets I know and let them chat with her. This all took up about 2 hours.

She was laughing a lot by then. Telling about her life. Answering
Questions.

She had pulled a sack of homemade mamool cookies—little powdered
Sugar crumbly mounds stuffed with dates and nuts—out of her bag—
And was offering them to all the women at the gate.

To my amazement, not a single woman declined one. It was like a
Sacrament. The traveler from Argentina, the traveler from California,
The lovely woman from Laredo—we were all covered with the same
Powdered sugar. And smiling. There are no better cookies.

And then the airline broke out the free beverages from huge coolers—
Non-alcoholic—and the two little girls for our flight, one African
American, one Mexican American—ran around serving us all apple juice
And lemonade and they were covered with powdered sugar too.

And I noticed my new best friend—by now we were holding hands—
Had a potted plant poking out of her bag, some medicinal thing,

With green furry leaves. Such an old country traveling tradition. Always
Carry a plant. Always stay rooted to somewhere.

And I looked around that gate of late and weary ones and thought,
This is the world I want to live in. The shared world.

Not a single person in this gate—once the crying of confusion stopped
—has seemed apprehensive about any other person.

They took the cookies. I wanted to hug all those other women too.
This can still happen anywhere.

Not everything is lost.

Naomi Shihab Nye (b. 1952), “Wandering Around an Albuquerque Airport Terminal.” I think this poem may be making the rounds, this week, but that’s as it should be.  (via oliviacirce)

When I lose hope in the world, I remember this poem.

(via bookoisseur)

I’m really glad I read that.

(via selfesteampunk)

So now when you do Alt + Reblog, the reblog symbol turns green, “explodes” and then disappears.

6secsofmagcon:

internetboys-bands-anime-oh-my:

the-doctor-and-his-companions:

ask-pinkamena-diane-p:

theshelbylife:

incestuous-lesbianponies:

laurarw:

image

I THOUGHT THIS WAS KIDDING SOGMLASG


HOLY SHIT

((Fuck, I’m on mobile))

If you your on mobile you can just hold the reblog button down

Im on my phone in a car you bitch

oh my god 😂

(Source: lindsxymxc)

yummymeats:

beauty

How to make your own deodorant.
How to make pigtails without a part.
How to make your own fragrances.
How to have Game of Thrones hair.
How to make horn buns.

crafting/sewing

How to make a lolita dress.
How to make bloomers.
How to make a dress form.
How to make glass lanterns.
How to make comic shoes.
How to make cute hair bows.
How to sew some neat skirts!
How to make plastic keychains.
How to make cosplay armor.
How to make lip stain.
How to make a giant squid.
How to make a flower crown.

movies

Pixar movies.
Hayao Miyazaki movies.
Disney movies.
Dreamworks movies.
Movies to watch when it’s raining.
Great science fiction movies.

art

How to draw correct proportions.
How to draw/shade faces and folds.
How to draw animal noses.
How to create skin tone palettes.
Fashion inspiration.
How to draw bat wings.
Hairstyle inspiration (for girls).
Good typography fonts.
How to draw boobs.
How to shade (water and cell).
Instant art assignment.
Pretty cool ideas.
How to make a repeating pattern.

life

How to pack luggage.
How to work out like a dork.
How to fix your sore throat.
How to answer a job interview.
How to always get the best deals.
How to dress to the nines.
How to disappear.
How to go on a cute date.
How to not get raped.
How to bypass expensive wifi.
How to balance a checkbook.
How to catch shinies.
How to fight.

food

What can I cook?
Vegan recipes.
How to cook ramen.
How to handle your leftovers.
How to make Harry Potter Drinks.
How to make good spaghetti.
How to make hummus.
How to make green smoothies.
How to make a salad.
How to cook with tofu.
How to make eggs.
How to make dildo popsicles.

feeling crummy?

You’re worthwhile.
Letting it out doesn’t have to leave a scar.
Your emotions are valid.
It’s a beautiful world.
Take care of yourself (ftm).
You are beautiful.
(No matter what you say.)
You’re the best!
How to live.
Lot’s of people love you.
You’re wonderful even if you don’t see it yourself.
You deserve to relax.
Slow down.
This earth is incredible.
You deserve life.
You deserve life.
You deserve life.
You deserve life.

yummymeats:

beauty

How to make your own deodorant.

How to make pigtails without a part.

How to make your own fragrances.

How to have Game of Thrones hair.

How to make horn buns.

crafting/sewing

How to make a lolita dress.

How to make bloomers.

How to make a dress form.

How to make glass lanterns.

How to make comic shoes.

How to make cute hair bows.

How to sew some neat skirts!

How to make plastic keychains.

How to make cosplay armor.

How to make lip stain.

How to make a giant squid.

How to make a flower crown.

movies

Pixar movies.

Hayao Miyazaki movies.

Disney movies.

Dreamworks movies.

Movies to watch when it’s raining.

Great science fiction movies.

art

How to draw correct proportions.

How to draw/shade faces and folds.

How to draw animal noses.

How to create skin tone palettes.

Fashion inspiration.

How to draw bat wings.

Hairstyle inspiration (for girls).

Good typography fonts.

How to draw boobs.

How to shade (water and cell).

Instant art assignment.

Pretty cool ideas.

How to make a repeating pattern.

life

How to pack luggage.

How to work out like a dork.

How to fix your sore throat.

How to answer a job interview.

How to always get the best deals.

How to dress to the nines.

How to disappear.

How to go on a cute date.

How to not get raped.

How to bypass expensive wifi.

How to balance a checkbook.

How to catch shinies.

How to fight.

food

What can I cook?

Vegan recipes.

How to cook ramen.

How to handle your leftovers.

How to make Harry Potter Drinks.

How to make good spaghetti.

How to make hummus.

How to make green smoothies.

How to make a salad.

How to cook with tofu.

How to make eggs.

How to make dildo popsicles.

feeling crummy?

You’re worthwhile.

Letting it out doesn’t have to leave a scar.

Your emotions are valid.

It’s a beautiful world.

Take care of yourself (ftm).

You are beautiful.

(No matter what you say.)

You’re the best!

How to live.

Lot’s of people love you.

You’re wonderful even if you don’t see it yourself.

You deserve to relax.

Slow down.

This earth is incredible.

You deserve life.

You deserve life.

You deserve life.

You deserve life.

autumnbound:

powderedbuns:

dialga:

meowling-quim:

sockdreams.com is such a dangerous website omg you can drop so much money within the blink of an eye

I NEED ALL OF THEM

let me tell you about sockdreams okay. everything they have is cute and their “longer” socks which are for taller or curvier people are amazing. i am almost 6 feet tall and not a skinny lady and i bought some thigh highs thinking they’d end up being calf socks on me and just kind of resigning myself to this fate but when they arrived (in like two days, holy shit they mail out fast) not only did they pull all the way up without trouble, they managed to stay up and look cute. as. fuck. OP’s right yo, that website’s a threat to your wallet.

sockdreams is such a legitimate company and I love them a lot

(Source: mogitha)

laina:

laina:

laina:

this guy was watching the vmas with me and now he’s educating himself how precious is that

he keeps asking me all these questions about aspects of feminism and he’s like “so basically it’s about letting women do what they want without being judged for it” and I was like yea and he was like “oh okay that’s so simple why isn’t everyone a feminist” it’s precious

update: I banged him

laina:

laina:

laina:

this guy was watching the vmas with me and now he’s educating himself how precious is that

he keeps asking me all these questions about aspects of feminism and he’s like “so basically it’s about letting women do what they want without being judged for it” and I was like yea and he was like “oh okay that’s so simple why isn’t everyone a feminist” it’s precious

update: I banged him

Self love treats

  • Bubble baths: Turn down the lights, fill the bath with lovely bubbles and water at the perfect temp. Lay back and relax. You deserve it.
  • Smoothies: Make a delicious treat that is also healthy. I love smoothies.
  • Reading: Immerse yourself in another world and feel the connections to the characters in that world.
  • Writing: Write down anything that pops into your head. Let it flow out. Don't censor yourself. You don't even have to read it when you are done writing.
  • Take a walk: Go outside. Appreciate nature and just let the natural sounds soothe your soul.
  • Buy yourself a treat: Go to your fave store and buy yourself something small.
  • Pet a dog: Dogs are amazing and soothing because they tend to love you unconditionally as long as they are treated with kindness. Petting an animal always brings a smile to my face.
  • Make a blanket fort: Build a small fort using blankets and fill it with anything that makes you feel safe. It is your hide away and yours alone, unless you invite others in. It is a place you feel completely safe and nothing can hurt you. You can go there whenever you need space and want to be alone.
  • Watch a movie: Curl up in your fave seat with your fave blanket and watch your fave movie. Just focus on the movie and nothing else.

Anonymous asked:

I feel so useless sitting here. What can I do to help Ferguson??

megwhat:

wocinsolidarity:

natnovna:

there’s a bail and legal fund that’s been set up for those who’ve been arrested 

this person is trying to organize a food drive for school kids in ferguson

national moment of silence 2014 (for victims of police brutality) 

share the following: 

videos of what has happened

links to articles

how to make a tear gas mask

livestream link to the peaceful protests

Ferguson Police Department
Email (taken off the site) 

222 S. Florissant Road
Ferguson, MO 63135

Ph: 314-522-3100
Fx: 314-524-5290

***SIGNAL BOOST!!!!WAYS TO CONTRIBUTE***

The legal fund.  I can’t stress enough how important that legal fund is going to be for SO many people who have been arrested. 

the-dude-sisco:

If there is one picture i post on here that i really wish y’all would reblog the fuck out of, it’s this one.
PLEASE. It could save many people that are under the ridiculous police state going on right now in Ferguson Missouri. Those people need our help.

the-dude-sisco:

If there is one picture i post on here that i really wish y’all would reblog the fuck out of, it’s this one.

PLEASE. It could save many people that are under the ridiculous police state going on right now in Ferguson Missouri. Those people need our help.

flawlessxqueen:

This is the young man that was walking with Mike Brown,

thefrogman:

Depression is very complicated and it affects everyone a little differently. There is not a lot of generalized advice I would feel comfortable giving with confidence. However… there are a few things that come to mind.
It’s never too soon to ask for help.
You are not stuck with the first doctor or therapist you see.
Do not lie.
Find a passion.
Do not give up.
1. There is a stigma about depression that seems to make people feel guilty just for having it. Like they don’t deserve help, even if they need it. Many people resist seeking help with epic levels of stubbornness. The thing is, depression can take a while to get its claws completely into your brain. If you seek help as soon as you realize what’s happening, you may be able to treat the depression before your brain gets used to the chemical imbalance. Going to a professional and getting checked out will do you no harm. But delaying this option could make treatment much harder. The sooner the better. 
Specifically for teens in this situation…
Sometimes getting help requires parental involvement. If you are lucky, you will have supportive, understanding parents and this will not be a huge problem. Unfortunately that will not always be the case. If you are worried about telling your parents, I would suggest finding another adult that you trust and can confide in. Perhaps a teacher, a counselor, an aunt or uncle. Someone that your parents will respect and listen to. Explain the situation and ask if they wouldn’t mind confronting your parents together. Strength in numbers can be very effective. 
2. I have come across quite a few people that think the first person they see is the only one that can ever treat them. Having good patient/doctor and patient/therapist chemistry is vital to getting effective treatment for depression. You may have to explore some very dark emotional pain with this person, and if you do not like or trust them, it will be very hard to open up. If you have any reservations about your doctor or therapist, don’t be afraid to try another one.
3. Under no circumstances should you lie to your doctor or therapist. You are not the first person to think, “If I tell them this, they might think I’m a terrible person.” These people are trained not to judge you or your actions. They are trained to use that information to help you. To guide you. To treat you. If you tell them lies to make yourself look better, you risk not getting well again. 
4. Depression has a way of holding you back from doing anything productive. There will be things you want to do, things you should be doing, but it destroys your motivation. Passion is often immune to this effect. Finding something you are passionate about can help you get out of this rut and even help motivate you in other areas. Some people are lucky and already know their passion. Whether it is art, music, writing, movies, knitting… whatever. But sometimes people don’t know what their passion is. Especially if you are younger. If that is the case, I strongly urge you to experiment and find your passion. You don’t even have to be good at it. It just needs to be something you can sink yourself into without a great deal of motivation. For me, my passion is making people happy. I almost feel like I need to do it. And when my depression is trying to slow me down, my passion is usually so powerful that it gives that chemical imbalance the middle finger and I go on about my business. Seek out your passion and it may be just the thing to get you through the days. 
5. There was a point in my life in which I felt I had hit bottom. I thought there was no way life could get any better. I felt like if I continued living, life was always going to be as terrible as it was in that moment. When we are young we lack the wisdom and experience to know just how untrue this is. And I think because we don’t know that, far too many of us give up. Life is not a constant downward trajectory. Life is full of ups and downs. All pain fades with time and things will get better. That does not mean you will not find a new pain and go to that low place again. And it does not mean once the pain fades you will live a life full of constant bliss. Life will be filled with bits of joy and bits of pain and everything in between. But the bits of joy are much more profound. They are worth waiting for. And the experience of pain can often make you appreciate the joy even more. If you give up, you will not get to feel just how wonderful those bits of joy are.
Now that I am older I look back at that moment when I nearly gave up and I think about how much I would have regretted it. I think about all the amazing things that I would have missed. I think about all the lives that I have touched since then and how important it was that I stick around. Not giving up can be much easier said than done. And working through the pain can be long and arduous. But your next bit of joy will come. And it will be fantastic. And when the next bit of pain comes, you will be able to handle it even better than before.
Life can be tremendously difficult, but as you get older you will get better at living it. If you give it a chance, you will not regret seeing where it takes you.
Bonus tip…
6. Try getting a corgi if possible. 

thefrogman:

Depression is very complicated and it affects everyone a little differently. There is not a lot of generalized advice I would feel comfortable giving with confidence. However… there are a few things that come to mind.

  1. It’s never too soon to ask for help.
  2. You are not stuck with the first doctor or therapist you see.
  3. Do not lie.
  4. Find a passion.
  5. Do not give up.

1. There is a stigma about depression that seems to make people feel guilty just for having it. Like they don’t deserve help, even if they need it. Many people resist seeking help with epic levels of stubbornness. The thing is, depression can take a while to get its claws completely into your brain. If you seek help as soon as you realize what’s happening, you may be able to treat the depression before your brain gets used to the chemical imbalance. Going to a professional and getting checked out will do you no harm. But delaying this option could make treatment much harder. The sooner the better. 

Specifically for teens in this situation…

Sometimes getting help requires parental involvement. If you are lucky, you will have supportive, understanding parents and this will not be a huge problem. Unfortunately that will not always be the case. If you are worried about telling your parents, I would suggest finding another adult that you trust and can confide in. Perhaps a teacher, a counselor, an aunt or uncle. Someone that your parents will respect and listen to. Explain the situation and ask if they wouldn’t mind confronting your parents together. Strength in numbers can be very effective. 

2. I have come across quite a few people that think the first person they see is the only one that can ever treat them. Having good patient/doctor and patient/therapist chemistry is vital to getting effective treatment for depression. You may have to explore some very dark emotional pain with this person, and if you do not like or trust them, it will be very hard to open up. If you have any reservations about your doctor or therapist, don’t be afraid to try another one.

3. Under no circumstances should you lie to your doctor or therapist. You are not the first person to think, “If I tell them this, they might think I’m a terrible person.” These people are trained not to judge you or your actions. They are trained to use that information to help you. To guide you. To treat you. If you tell them lies to make yourself look better, you risk not getting well again. 

4. Depression has a way of holding you back from doing anything productive. There will be things you want to do, things you should be doing, but it destroys your motivation. Passion is often immune to this effect. Finding something you are passionate about can help you get out of this rut and even help motivate you in other areas. Some people are lucky and already know their passion. Whether it is art, music, writing, movies, knitting… whatever. But sometimes people don’t know what their passion is. Especially if you are younger. If that is the case, I strongly urge you to experiment and find your passion. You don’t even have to be good at it. It just needs to be something you can sink yourself into without a great deal of motivation. For me, my passion is making people happy. I almost feel like I need to do it. And when my depression is trying to slow me down, my passion is usually so powerful that it gives that chemical imbalance the middle finger and I go on about my business. Seek out your passion and it may be just the thing to get you through the days. 

5. There was a point in my life in which I felt I had hit bottom. I thought there was no way life could get any better. I felt like if I continued living, life was always going to be as terrible as it was in that moment. When we are young we lack the wisdom and experience to know just how untrue this is. And I think because we don’t know that, far too many of us give up. Life is not a constant downward trajectory. Life is full of ups and downs. All pain fades with time and things will get better. That does not mean you will not find a new pain and go to that low place again. And it does not mean once the pain fades you will live a life full of constant bliss. Life will be filled with bits of joy and bits of pain and everything in between. But the bits of joy are much more profound. They are worth waiting for. And the experience of pain can often make you appreciate the joy even more. If you give up, you will not get to feel just how wonderful those bits of joy are.

Now that I am older I look back at that moment when I nearly gave up and I think about how much I would have regretted it. I think about all the amazing things that I would have missed. I think about all the lives that I have touched since then and how important it was that I stick around. Not giving up can be much easier said than done. And working through the pain can be long and arduous. But your next bit of joy will come. And it will be fantastic. And when the next bit of pain comes, you will be able to handle it even better than before.

Life can be tremendously difficult, but as you get older you will get better at living it. If you give it a chance, you will not regret seeing where it takes you.

Bonus tip…

6. Try getting a corgi if possible. 

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1) A boy telling you you’re pretty won’t make you see the beauty in the fullness of your cheeks, in redness of your lips at 2 in the morning when tequila is making the bar bathroom spin. He can’t take away the ugliness that you see in yourself, you have to do that.

2) You have to be ready to hear someone say they love you. You have to be ready, and you have to be willing, and you have to listen. Because sometimes, they won’t say those three words, they’ll put a blanket over you while you’re watching a movie, they’ll kiss your cheek when they think you’re asleep, they’ll smile when they see you first thing in the morning. But you, you have to be willing to see it, feel it, let it in. Letting someone love you takes practice.

3) Don’t make compromises you can’t live with. Compromise is a different version of what you want, not a whole other Universe.

4) Learn to say no. No - to a movie you don’t want to watch; no - to sex you don’t want to have, no- to a relationship that’s driving you mad. Say no - to things that hurt you, to people that extinguish your fire, to jobs you hate and places that are desolate. There are bad things that we can’t control, bad things that happen and we are sucked into and have to feel with every fibre of our being, but the rest - learn to distance yourself, learn to say no.

5) Don’t expect people to walk through fire for you - not your parents, not your friends, not the person you’re in love with. Love doesn’t mean sacrifice, love shouldn’t mean sacrifice. Don’t expect someone to give away pieces of them, so they could fit you better. And don’t feel hurt when they refuse to - it’s self-preservation. Instead - learn from them. Do it as well.

6) Don’t tether yourself to people. Learn to make connections, to love, with both your feet steady on the ground. Learn to let people pass through your life; like a summer breeze, not a storm that’s just been unleashed.

7) Learn the difference between growth and growing up before it’s too late. Rooftops and water fights and ice cream for breakfast can be a part of your life at 10, 25, or 35. But by the time you’re 35 you need to learn to say enough, to be able to walk away, you need to be able to love yourself. Love yourself the way you loved yourself at 10, before the world had a chance to fill your head with ugliness.

m.v., The list of things I learned before turning 22, pt.1. (via onigiri85)